Truth for sale?

When Paramhansa Yogananda landed into America in 1920 as per the suggestions of His teacher he didnt know

fear of the future

What makes us so afraid at times in life that we simply dont want to live a life and just run away from it?
Fear of life? fear of tomorrow? fear of a dead line? fear of future ? fear of failure?

Is this fear not triggering our levels of motivation in life? is there a way out of it?
My answer to the last question at present is neither affirmative nor negative and I am not to be intimidated by any ready made answers or quotable quotes or the talks of How I should remain in 'present''awareness' 'transformation' 'here' 'now' 'god' 'hamburgers' etc etc.

I sit here and I question this.Why? because I have fears ,if I had no fears would I even want to know what fears are?I am not worried about humanity or any other imagined entity right now...I see fears and I am trying to find out the exact meaning of it.

Then what is making me afraid? hmmm..lets see...its mostly a failure..I dont want to fail ..I dont want to be deprived of a cozy thought of success...I dont want to let many things Go....I dont want to face my past...

Many reasons..Its interesting how there is 'I' In every one of them...Can I scrutinize the I? I try...There are many things I collectively call as I ..a thinking process..this body...both combined ....neither ....All of them talk about soul but I cant feel any soul...I can imagine it to be many things but I cant feel it...
Anyway..I focus on my fear...and as I am writing this they dont feel to be existent...so through a momentary one pointedness of attention or a simple distraction they dont have a valid(felt) existence.

Lets keep this pending for you.As I go into serenity for time being.

Of Instincts

The constant need of man to devote himself to an ideal that exists without amazes me.When did we learn to distrust ourselves and started believing in something that always existed outside us?...Any Idea, however noble, if it does not come from inside out It bears a very little significance.
The faculty of memory and recall is at the bottom of all intellectualization and excessive rationalization ...The free will and instincts that exist beyond the realm of simple memory-recall mechanism is invariably and unfortunately ignored...

a set of rules..even if it shall exist has to come from a whole hearted sensitivity towards the surrounding-individual dynamics and not from the concrete ideas of moralities.
Thus an objective set of moral values cannot be decided and forever followed. It must be individualistically deduced(or may be induced) from the knowledge of all that exists in us .
Freedom of will cannot be underestimated....the common ideals can never be realized...each individual must be curled up in himself/herself....
The submission of will is lack of life....there is no such thing as artificial intelligence vs natural intelligence.....because all form of intelligence is essentially artificial...
Value of life is in its natural instincts and not in the effectiveness of memory-recall mechanism.

In this regard,Human intellect does have limited yet definite significance at least inside Civilizations.But its not an ideal in itself. It is something to be mastered and triumphed over through the natural power to evolve.The desire to overcome the intellect and a mere pond of thoughts to transcend into the realm of what exists in reality and not just in our limited memory and perception is a very important one if we wish to separate ourselves from apes.Even the animals live a 'better' life than most of the civilized Humans(may be all of them) as in the bigger picture all of us are impermanent..and just because we have created artificial bunch of imaginary ideals for us doesnt really make us any special....

The truth is that there is no natural difference between any other living consciousness(that includes even unicellular organisms) and Humans as far as the 'quality' of life is considered....because it is the 'lifeness of life' itself that is more important than whichever organic form it exists in....

Which Brings us to the very Idea of realizing of our Highest ideal....the identification of ourselves with everything else by constant inward knowledge of ourselves on all fronts....In this regard Human intellect ,which is just an organic tool..(like the venom of snake or claws of tiger or tail of a monkey),is of secondary significance

Thus a natural instinct 'to live' ,'to see','to hear','to taste','to feel' in its most purest form is always more important than the intellectual yearnings of 'to achieve' ,'to succeed' 'to follow'....